More sex to report :P

I went back to the JFM (junior faculty member) for a repeat. He's pretty cute ^-^.

The OKC girl that I met on Wednesday was a complete and utter WIN! OMG. She's amazing. Remember when I mentioned that my type was short straight blonde hair, short, with small boobs? Yup, fits it to a T :P. She's also got realllllly nice, large, peirced nipples <3.

We met for bubble tea, as planned... I got real bubbles (tapioca) this time. She gave me a big hug when she saw me (>.<) and we talked. She does web stuff for a living, so she's pretty geeky but hasn't seen a lot of anime. I got her to watch Spirited Away. We started getting cuddly and 3/4 of the way through I kissed her. When the movie was over, sex0rs! We made out for a bit, and then I went down on her, she went down on me, I came, and then I got her off with my hand. (In case you were wondering.) Anyway, we've made plans for Tuesday (tomorrow!). I'm forcing her to watch Perfect Blue. I hope it's not going to be too weird for her.

I also slept with this random (geeky) white guy, a former marine. He was pretty rough with me, in a way which was what I used to think that I really wanted. But somewhere in the last 3 years or so my tastes have changed; I prefer more gentle lovers, i.e. my bf and OKC girl.

On the people-I-haven't-slept-with-front, a guy recently moved into my house who seems super cool. He's seen a little anime (he owns Last Exile) but... is not nearly as hardcore as I am. Still, we get along well, so it's nice to have someone to hang out with. He hadn't seen the R.O.D. OVA so I showed it to him last night. I was tired and fell asleep in the middle :P.

I went to party at a junior faculty member's house the other day, and ended up sleeping with him.

The OKC girl is real! We're meeting for bubble tea next week sometime... sooo excited! :P

Well, I posted THAT too soon. It's up to 5, this time with a cs phd student (white male)(I don't know why I feel the need to categorize my sexual partners by race and sex, I am probably racist). He and I met on okcupid and chatted a bit. Then he found a girlfriend and there was this 5 month absence of conversation, but then they broke up and I got booty called. We met at a local bubble tea place, and then went back to my place. He had some first time nerves, but in contrast to half Filipino boy, I could tell it was actually nerves and that he would make a good lover given a few more tries. I will probably hit that again.

Plus, he was really fun to talk to. We reminisced about super old internet games/memes and compared notes on Wolfram Alpha. *sigh* I love real geeks. They really do make better lovers as well as conversationalists.

(No worries, bf that reads this blog, you are still smarter and cuter and better in bed :D)

Still have hopes for the okcupid girl. Come to think of it, I think this guy is the first person I've slept with from okcupid... let's hope to make that 2 :).

I took the original version of this test a while ago, and this was my score:



Anyway, they came out with an updated one:





I guess the result makes sense; I am in graduate school, after all, for SCIENCE.
I am disappointed, however, at my insufficient level of nerdiness.

Anyway, I object to how they ask some of the questions. I could have scored much better in the comic book geek section if it weren't so biased towards American comics, for one. (No, I do not have physical access to a DC/Marvel comic within 15 seconds, but I am capable of getting you a CLAMP comic within that time.) And no, I don't own a pokemon figure because pokemon is for American chidlren only. I have many figures from other anime shows though, and this makes me MORE geeky! The other thing is their unreasonable focus on owning physical copies of things. For instance, I do have a few DC/Marvel comic books on my hard drive. I also have copies of Firefly, Star Trek (TOS), Farscape, Babylon 5, etc. These did not count. Because I am cheap and download everything off the interwebs, this does not make me less of a geek.

The difference between people getting their doctorate in information science versus getting their doctorate in computer science:

The info sci guy let's me sftp straight into his computer on an account called "test" with an easy password. He removes my access after I keep on putting, getting, and rming on his laptop. (I was way too amused by that.)

The cs guy makes makes me create an ssh key which he attaches to my user account, "paige". It's not to get into his laptop, it's to get into a designated server. And I still can't log-in because I can't get through his firewall. When he finally lets me through, I have access to nothing that isn't mine.

Aaaaannnd...

I have now slept with 4 black people (2 female, 2 male.)

So there's this guy who I know who is sooooo totally into Babylon 5. I mean, I am into Bab5, but he's seen it 4 or 5 times all the way through. Anyway, we bonded on this point and got along really well. And you know me (well you don't) but I am pretty damn flirtatious. With just about anyone. And as he told me a few nights ago, unlike many girls, I actually follow through with my flirtation.

Anyways, I would have slept with him no matter what, but I was a lot more motivated on this point, I suspect, because he's black. Which makes me a racist, of course. I tend to be more motivated to sleep with people of different ethnic or national origin than I. I'm not really sure why; they don't seem to be terribly different according to region, in terms of sexual prowess. Is it bragging rights? Perhaps :). I mean, I was more motivated to initially sleep with my current boyfriend (ethnically Chinese) because he was East Asian. Now I am motivated because he is damn good in bed.

Anyway, here's the diversity sample off the top of my head following the format [Race, Country of Origin, Sex]. It's only considered country of origin if they spent most of their childhood there and has citizenship in that country (i.e. has an accent).

Latino, Chile, Male
Latino/White, Venezuela, Male
Latino, Colombia, Male
Latino, US, Female
Latino (Mexican), US, Male
There's some more random Latinos that probably should be in this list... they're hard to keep track of :)

Black, Haiti, Female
Black, US, Female
Black, US, Male
Black, US, Male (Bab5 guy!)

Asian (Chinese), Canada (Toronto), Male (Boyfriend!)

White, Canada (Toronto), Male
White, Ukraine, Male
White, Russia, Male

Note the conspicuous lack of an East Asian female. I also need to hook up with some West Asians. They are hot, but difficult to actually get into bed. Latinos are the easiest non-white race to hook up with. I'm not sure why that is- maybe it's because they look white, whereas with other races most decidedly do not, so they feel more comfortable flirting with a gringa. It also could be that Latin males are playas :D.

Anyway, back to the sex...

It was kind of "meh." Sorry, bab5 guy. He's leaving the region for good though in a few weeks, however, so there won't be the issue of having to reject a repeat. I don't think he'll be too upset- usually when sex is "meh" is "meh" for both parties.

This happens a lot, but he was expecting me to be "much more aggressive." I am a very aggressive person in life, but not in bed. In fact, in bed, I can be quite wall-flower-esque, as I am a sub. This often confuses people.

But this does not mean I can't have awesome reciprocal non-kinky sex. Part of what is so attractive about being a sub is that it means that the other person (well... in the fantasy anyway) wants you so badly they're going to take you whether you like it or not. So as long as the other partner shows a great deal of desire for me, I get very turned on. You don't have to want to rape me, you just have to want me.

If they lie there like a lump, however... it's incredibly unsexy. The two times (it's only been two) that a guy told me "I was expecting you to be more aggressive" that's exactly what they did... just lie there. I highly suspect that were I to be with an actual submissive guy, they might just lie there, but they'd also be highly excited. Which might be ok. This was not :).

I have recently moved to a new place, and thus far have failed to properly acquire nerd friends.

When I was in college, I met all of my friends through the local anime club. These friends turned out to be all around nerds, so they introduced me to many other veins of nerddom, such as D&D, other boardgames, and dressing in funny clothing and speaking in funny accents and fighting with various weapons.

In an attempt to duplicate my past success, I went to the local anime club here. But no one talked to me and my attempts to make friends were sort of rebuffed. :( Part of the problem, I think, is that "break" involved omake. "Break" in the old anime club consisted of the lights coming on, people buying refreshments, and wandering around and talking to people. More stuff to watch is not conducive to socializing.

Anyway, having failed to make friends there, I sort of stayed home and watched lots of anime and sci-fi. My neighbor is pretty nerdy, but they didn't have access to droids I was looking for.

Anyway, this weekend I want to a party at a classmate's house. It was pretty funny because there were only 5 of us there; him and his girlfriend, me, and this other couple. And it was like the sun peaking up over the hillside; finally! TWUE GEEKS! Said folks were members of the SCA (not EXACTLY my crowd, but still good), excellent musicians (this is starting to sound familiar), a CS grad student and electrical engineering undergrad (a ha!), and they had brought Munchkin with them. DING DING DING DING.

So we played Munchkin. And I won. But only because I had the kneepads of allure, which forces other people to help you. I had no equipment, so I couldn't fight practically anything, but by forcing a really powerful friend to help me, we managed to take down 50+ points worth of monster. Totally sweet.

Anyway, I hope this is a start of continuing relationship. It has the most promise thus far. I am extremely excited. (Today the male half of the couple friended me on FB, and I friended the female half.) Yay!

So, I have cheated on my boyfriend. Multiple times. With two people. A while ago.

Yes, he knows about it.

Pretty much everyone I knew thought it was inevitable. Heck, even I thought it was inevitable. But it's nice to know that I actually do have no self-control.

The nice thing about it is that my feelings for my boyfriend are completely unchanged. After telling him about it, I loved him more than ever, and still do. It's official; sex has abso-fucking-lutely nothing to do with love (for me). I always thought this was true, and while I have dated various people before, I had never been in love before, so it's possible something had fundamentally been altered in the Paige-brain. But nope! I'm still completely uncommitted to people I fuck, except for this one. That's a relief.

Anyway, now that that's out of the way, I actually haven't gone on to greener pastures. The two people I fucked were living with me, so it just sort of happened. (I pretty much can't resist any sort of sexual advance, so ^-^). I am, however, running a severe non-male-deficit. I have several candidates lined up.

Candidate 1: A queer gender queer (biologically female) who is so nerdy (<3)(possible even more than me. They're into fandom like WHOA.) They live in the room next to me, and is a sub. Who likes it in the butt. I am so feel-doeing that. Except that I am too shy. GRRR.

Candidate 2: A lesbian that lives in my co-op. She's a little overweight, but eh, I'm not that picky.

Candidate 3: YOUR MOM. She is soooo fucking hawt. Hells yeah.

Candidate 4: Some chick who goes to school with me. 'Cept that might be awkward. But she's actually really cute <3.

But I'm back!

So, I posted on one of Neil Gaiman's posts about his public defense of a man who is currently on trial for owning manga depicting sex with underage characters. My response generated a pretty big response itself, probably because it's a little bit shocking.

Yes, I like lolicon. Not only that, but I like TODDLERCON (I know, I'm a real perv). I have on numerous occasions masturbated to content posted on Not4Chan. Of course I feel terribly threatened by this case. So I felt it was necessary to make an argument from my perspective. Neil's argument was a terribly wonderful one, of course. And it's certainly the argument I'd make if I were trying to convince as many people as possible NOT to criminalize lolicon. But I felt like I needed to stand up for perverts, not just for free speech, as wonderful as it is.

Anyway, one reason I love lolicon is because I am super into rape fantasies (always have been) and the added power differential and scariness of being underage adds a lot to it. I've found that there's definite escalation in my fantasies. At one point a simple rape fantasy was enough. Now it has to involve scarier things, like the potential for scarring, being underage, the potential of catching disease or babies, etc, to really be alluring anymore.

The other reason I love lolicon is because I like hentai in general. Anime characters are so pretty. I have on numerous occasions moped over the fact that cartoon characters are not real.

Disclaimer: I am a fake programmer.

Anyone can program. Your mom, your sister, your dog's bitch. But programming well seems to be this weird innate talent.

There are two types of programmers; there are the ones that started programming when they were 5. They just did it naturally. They never intended to be programmers. They just ARE. Then there are the people that started programming because they had to use it for something, or they took a class in it. Such people can certainly learn to program and get what needs to be done. But they're still fake programmers. They'll just never be as good as someone who picked it up naturally. Why?

I think that something that typifies a great programmer is looking for the elegant solutions to problems, and constantly being unsatisfied with simply getting the right output.

Example: I'm taking this class with a lot of non-programmers, and we have to use Matlab. This girl was having trouble getting some function to work, and wanted me to help her. I noticed that she was using plot(1:100, data) which plots integers 1-100 against data. This is completely unnecessary, because plot(data) plots the data against the index, which is the same thing. These types of inefficiencies are very common in beginner programmers. But with most people (i.e. fake programmers) if you know how to do something, then you continue to do it that way for a long time.

It's sort of how everyone uses the mouse instead of keystroke commands. If they just learned the keystrokes, it would be SO MUCH FASTER but the learning curve is greater; so they continue to use the inefficient mouse way. I mean, I'm of the generation of having used computers for at LEAST 10 years; in 10 years you'd think that people would have maximized their efficiency. But they don't. They just stick to what they know.

I think that the reason that people are "real" or "fake" programmers is not because real programmers are inherently geniuses, but that they're people who are simply intensely curious about the process of programming. Because they spend so much time being "inefficient"- mucking about, etc- they have a much deeper understanding of programming than someone who is learning things by the book, and will continue to use inefficient methods because that's what they know.

And in conclusion, this is why men are better than women at programming ;).

(P.S. neither way of plotting is correct, since she was plotting a time series... they start at 0 and all. If you make your data a timeseries object though, you can just do plot(tsobj) and it will start at 0 AND even label the axes for you.)

"We thought you'd like to know that we shipped this portion of
your order separately to give you quicker service. You won't be charged
any extra shipping fees, and the remainder of your order will follow as
soon as those items become available."

Yup, that's right. They shipped the butt plug that I ordered separately because the textbooks are going to be a while.

So it will be here in time for my bf to fuck my pussy while I'm wearing it. Thanks amazon! :D

On the monogamy front, I have been sorely tempted on two occasions now. There's one guy in the place I'm living that I would love to rape. There's also another guy in some of my classes who I would also love to rape. Fortunately (or unfortunately, however you look at it) they're both rather gentlemanly.

Ah! My secret has been discovered!

So, I am on xpeeps and this guy sends me this message:

"Paige --

Well, I guess we're two of a kind! I have a ThankPad, too, and I've been a computer weenie for AGES; in fact, I do it for a living! But I'm not so much of a geek that I don't recognize you! You're *****, and I have one of your ***** videos! I ADORE you!"

I indeed used to do bondage/BDSM porn... for a month or so. Apparently I had at least one fan ;).

Last night I dreamed that I fucked a girl with a feeldoe. It felt really good :D. Some women claim they orgasm during their wet dreams... I don't think I do, but I don't think I would know even if I did. I wake up wet, but that's not really proof of anything, as that happens with plain ol' arousal. At any rate, the dreams are pretty enjoyable regardless.

I told my boyfriend that it was probably because I hadn't masturbated in a few days. Usually I masturbate every day, and if I don't, I start to get sex dreams. He pointed out that it was the 11th, the start of my fertile period. That could be it too. Whatever the reason though, I am HORNY. :).

Speaking of the feeldoe, is it not totally cool? I first heard of it from a male friend of mine, who bought a fuckbuddy the feeldoe so she could fuck him in the ass. I jokingly suggested this to my boyfriend, who told me that he would wear it and fuck me in both holes at the same time. That's actually a huge turn-on for me... when he fucks me while I wear a buttplug I just die of pleasure. I've never had two cocks in me at the same time, but that's a big fantasy. A guy having two dicks works too!

So, apparently Woot Googles themselves, because my last post was mentioned on the Woot blog. I don't actually read Woot blogs, but one of a grand total the TWO friends of mine that know about this blog has it on her rss feed, and of course she mentioned it to me.

Anyway, in case you are curious about my Woots... I can't imagine why you would be, but too bad... ok, I can't even remember my regular Woots. But I can remember the Woot shirts. Because they are in my drawer. I have Pascal's Shirt (can anyone explain why Pascal, since it depicts the Sierpiński gasket?), Sugar BSOD (I was taking biochem at the time and couldn't resist), and a misprint of Threat Level: Doctorow which actually came in a bag of crap that my friend got. It was exactly my size (WM) and he's over 6 foot and male, so I claimed it. I really want At Last We Meet, but it sadly came out pre-kalarm days, and it was sold out when I first looked at shirt.woot that day. I'm waiting to buy it until it's on the chopping block. My most recent acquisition is Circuit-ulatory System, which I am planning to wear to the biology lab course I'm TA-ing on the day we do frog vivisections. Woot!

So, the program I've decided to use is kalarm. It is awesome.

You can schedule alarms to pop up a box with text, an image, run a script, or e-mail you. You can also give it scripts to run before the alarm goes off (so basically concurrently- this makes sense if you want it to run both a script and show a textbox/image or something) or after you close it. Since to-do lists aren't invasive enough for me, I made a chain of alarms. The first one goes off at 8:30am. When I close it, it runs a script to set off the next one, and closing that sets of the next one, etc. Figuring out how to do that was kind of a pain (i.e. I needed help :P). It involves using a DCOP call, and you have to rummage through the .ics file to find the ID number of the alarm you want to trigger.

You can also do sub-scheduling, so I have an alarm getting triggered after I eat breakfast, telling me to do crunches and push-ups every hour and 13 minutes. I started getting pissed off at my computer (stupid computer, making me do crunches, grumble grumble) so I suspect this is too frequent. Also my tummy is sore.

It is definitely flexible, but there are ways to make it MOAR awesome. For instance, customizable buttons. The default buttons are "close", "edit", "defer", and a thing that brings up the kalarm calendar. So I don't annoy myself by issuing myself commands ("Brush your teeth!") I often ask myself questions ("Have you brushed your teeth yet?"). It would be nice if you could add buttons that would run scripts. Like one that said "yes" and prompted the next alarm to follow, or opened a web page, or threw confetti.

Or something.

In addition to those alarms, I do have it run some other scripts. Mostly right now they're all going to webpages... I have one alarm that opens up woot.com, shirt.woot.com, and sellout.woot.com at 1:05am every day.

Anyway, re: appreciating Linux, I already liked it, but I'm starting to really understand the power of the command line. Obviously I'm still a n00b, but this program has forced me to learn how to run more things from the command line and use less. And that is kewl.

Not only because, let's face it, biologists like to see software named after biology stuff, but because people make the most random programs and it's so much fun to look through.

So, anyway, I am hopeless. I can never remember to do anything. Most of the time I remember to go to the bathroom. About half of the time I remember to eat. Occasionally I remember to take a shower. And I certainly don't ever remember to do crunches or anything like that. So I have hit upon a brilliant solution... I will get my computer to remind me!

Sadly, everything I have for that is kind clunky. Like Evolution. Ick.

So anyway, I searched my handy-dandy Synaptic Package Manager for "calendar" and I found something called "cycle":

The description:

     Cycle is a calendar for women. Given a cycle length or statistics for
     several periods, it can calculate the days until menstruation, the days
     of "safe" sex, the fertile period, and the days to ovulations, and
     define the d.o.b. of a child. It allows the user to write notes and
     helps to supervise the administration of hormonal contraceptive tablets.

     NOTE: This program is not a reliable contraceptive method. It does
     neither help to prevent sexual transmision diseases like AIDS. It is
     just an electronic means of keeping track of some of your medical data
     and extract some statistical conclusions from them. You cannot consider
     this program as a substitute for your gynecologist in any way.

LOL. And in my search better documentation, I came across this blog entry. An excerpt:

     Immense entertainment ensues to think about the functional testing.

     Man from testing team: Honey, did you have your period today?
     Test subject: Get lost you insensitive clod!
     Man from testing team: (Filling out bug report form) Prediction early by few days. Kindly fix ASAP.

LOL.

The search for a lightweight reminder system continues.

My boyfriend asked me when he should come to visit me in my new place, and I told him from September 11th-17th. Why? Because my projected date of ovulation is the 14th.

No, I do not want babies. This is the last thing I want. What I do want is for the little time I have with him to be amazing, and I know is that sex is at its best when I am fertile. This is for clearly obvious reasons. While men have no idea when a women is fertile, a woman knows... because she wants sex. Lots and lots of sex. (Also interesting is the fact that women are less likely to use a condom if she is fertile. Take that, logic!)

For women who claim that they get horny around their period, I think they are wrong. What I think is that they are confusing a desire for intimacy for a desire for sex. Before you get all huffy, let me share a personal experience. One day I was talking to my boyfriend, and I was overcome with desire for him. I kept telling him how much I wanted him, etc. So then I figured I was probably horny and tried to masturbate. Key word: try. I watched porn, played with myself, etc, all things that are guaranteed to get normal Paige sopping wet and ready for an explosive orgasm. And I remained as dry as a piece of parchment. After over an hour of unsuccessful masturbation, I went to bed. And woke up the next morning bleeding from my crotch.

I had wanted my boyfriend desperately... but not sexually. I had just wanted to be with him. Women get all emotional around their periods- this should come as no surprise to anyone- and what do you want when you're all emotional? The person you care for. If you would like non-anecdotal evidence for this, consider the fact that women who are cheating on their husbands have sex with them when they are infertile, and cheat when they are fertile. When they're horny, the cheat. When they're all emotional, they go to the person they're in a long term relationship with. Those bitches :D

I'm probably the only person totally uninterested in getting pregnant that schedules her boyfriend's visits based on her fertility period. I guess this is what happens when you cross biology nerd with sex fiend.

So, I have this male friend... my first boyfriend, actually, and he introduced me to anime. For that I owe him a great deal. (<3 anime!) Anyway, he loves buttsex. He loves buttsex so much, that even though he is completely unattracted to guys, he has sex with them. (This, btw, is a classic example of someone who is "heteroflexible" in case you are wondering about that) (For your general amusement, he is in the military. And hell, he's not even gay, but he has told me of other guys in his unit that are. And I've had sex with a girl in the army. So the military is full of gay. lulz.)

Anyway, today we were talking, and he of course brought up how he wants to be done up the butt, but how even kissing a guy makes him nauseous. And this made me remember something. Which is that kissing guys very frequently makes me nauseous, and while I have kissed many a girl, every single kiss was enjoyable.

This is so pervasive that I just tell every guy I'm with that I don't like kissing. At best, kissing does nothing for me. They don't need to know that it sometimes makes me want to throw-up.

But I love fucking guys. Abso-fucking-lutely love it. Yay cock. And I love making love to girls, but well, my rocks don't get off quite the way they do with guys. I like being dominated, and fucked in the mouth, pussy, and especially ass. I like being used for another's pleasure. I've had sex with a girl with a strap-on, but it just isn't the same. So far, if I were to rate my sexual experiences, there would be a few guys on the top, a solid cluster of girls in the middle, and all the rest of the guys at the bottom. So... does that make me straight? Or bi? Or queer? Or heteroflexible?

Or a lesbian that enjoys getting raped? I have a male friend who enjoys fulfilling other women's rape fantasies. He recently "raped" a lesbian woman. She's legally married to her wife, and she has two children with her. She is completely closeted about enjoying being with men and self-identifies as a lesbian. Is it really accurate to call her bisexual?

And don't even get me started on relationship aspect of this. That's for a whole 'nother post.

THIS

Especially this:

"Preventing customs agents from searching laptops 'would open a vulnerability in our border by providing criminals and terrorists with a means to smuggle child pornography or other dangerous and illegal computer files into the country,' Cunningham said.

This kind of makes me want sic Anonymous on him. Has this guy, um, heard of something called the internet? The internet does not have borders. Well, with the exception of China. This statement would make sense if the United States were China. But it isn't. (On a side note, I do have a RL friend that's a member, but he's kind of new, so I don't exactly have sic-ing power).

Speaking of Anonymous, they got a little mention in this article on trolls. It's actually pretty well balanced and surprisingly well researched. I was vaguely appalled, and found it vaguely appealing. It would be nice to have that much power.

But I am, sadly, the type to fall for the n00b-style troll. Because sometimes they're actually n00bs! And especially if I'm a mod/op, I feel like I should help them instead of ridiculing them. We were all n00bs once. I've only really engaged in harassing people online if a) everyone else was doing it (I know! Such a good reason!) and b) the person themselves was a total troll. The only time I really had it out for someone was when he posted my real name online. That is completely inexcusable, and that's a reason I have a real problem with that guy that posted that fake CL ad and posted the respondees information. I mean, true, they should have guarded their information better. But all they wanted was to get laid, the poor things.

I've posted fake CL ads for the responses, but that's for my private amusement. (I posted an ad this past year for April Fool's Day... and my ex boyfriend answered it. Lol.) That's completely different from getting people fired. I mean, honestly, I don't think someone should get fired for answering any CL ad, but that's the culture we live in. It sucks. But the poster is just as culpable as the company.